Currently Listening The Very Best of Cat Stevens By Cat Stevens see related

     been a while...xanga. I have not missed you. In fact I hate you. But enough about me...haha. Visit home was nice, my parents are still the shit. My dog & cat remembered me too, that was awesome. The mustang is looking really lonely, though. Boomdigs, nice chillin with ya last weekend. Damn hippie.

     What a crazy month it's been. Midterms have got me stressed out. Lots of drama & pointless stress. So I was thinking...they say you're supposed to figure out who you are in college. At this rate, it's gonna be a long process. There are two things that really make me uncomfortable: dependence and settling. Depending on other people to do your job or take care of things for you is not healthy. In fact, it's kind of counterproductive. Avoiding your problems does not make them go away.

    I'm burnt out. I always figured I'd settle down and into life eventually, but never anytime too soon. I've always wanted more than the status quo. I've definitely been taking that for granted. But anyways...

     God I love music. There is nothing better. Nothing.

     Damn Astros. It's okay Cards, I ain't mad at cha. Besides, the Sox are gonna win it all.

     Apparently I'm a prick. Wait, no- obviously I'm a prick. Meh, could be worse...I could be a panzy. Or a liar. I hate liars. G'night, folks.

Currently Listening Ask the Fish By Leftover Salmon see related

     Decided to post some good news this time. I'm going home on the 14th or something like that. Allllright. I can't wait to see my dog. I'm taking him on the longest walk ever. Well, maybe not. Chem test tomorrow...9 AM. Calc quiz too. I should prolly get on that- I hate calc.

     I dunno what to say right now. So much is going on my mind is like a blur. I'm kinda thirsty...okay back. Both toilets are back in commission...thank you God.  Funny how things kinda have a way of evening out. Guess you take the good with the bad. Alright, might as well take a shower and get some studying done. Adios.

Currently Listening Wish You Were Here By Pink Floyd see related

     College is such a confusing time. Classes are confusing, people are confusing, I confuse myself. I feel like the metaphorical yo-yo, going through ups and downs constantly. But yeah...I don't know. Need to go run some errands today. BO-RING. I should also probably study before things get outta hand. Calc is such a bitch.

     I've never hated Beau's music more than right now...

     So I still feel like my life needs some sort of direction. I know it's early, but I'm kinda playing everything by ear right now and I'm not comfortable with it. I feel like I should be doing something productive with my time rather than spending all of it playing guitar, sitting around, and studying. Maybe I'm bored with life. Oh well, off to take care of things...

     By the way, this post sucked.

Currently Listening from a basement on the hill By Elliott Smith see related

     Have you ever felt like you just needed a change in life? Like somewhere long ago, you took a wrong turn and now you have no clue where the hell you are at? Wake up one morning and you're in Dallas, surrounded by people you hardly know? If so, I have two pieces of advice. First of all, assess the situation. How did you get there? Why are you there? Why have you stayed? Next, and this one is extremely important, remember where you came from. Because, if it wasn't for who you were, you wouldn't be who you are, which is a direct result of why you are where you are at. Make sense? I didn't think so either...I'm rambling. Long story short, I feel so hollow. I keep thinking that this whole situation is just a dream and any minute I'm going to wake up to my mom running the vacuum at the butt-crack of dawn and my dog snuggled up on the floor next to my bed and my cat crying at four in the freaking morning cuz he thinks he's starving. I don't miss home until I start thinking about it, which is part of the reason why I don't call home a lot. I can picture my dad playing (yes, playing becuz he's just a pretend farmer) on his tractor, and my sis rolling up in her bright yellow mustang with that pretty smile on her face. That's where I'm myself. There's no hidden agendas or false securities. Everything is familiar and comfortable.

...okay so I broke tonight. Damn. I miss ya Illinois.

     Messed my leg up tonight in flag football. Of all the luck. Meh it'll be alright. Just got rocked. But hey...I guess Texas isn't all bad. Beau and Doogie - I couldn't ask for better roommates (or pledge bros). And Kristen...ah Kristen. You are a Godsend sometimes.

Currently Listening Live from Mars By Ben Harper see related

    Been a rough week for Apt. 5411. All three of our bikes got stolen yesterday, in broad daylight. Somebody took Beau's I-Pod last night at box-a-thon. Oh well. Aside from the sentimental fact that it was my dad's bike, it's only material. They make more. So yeah now I'm walking everywhere. Pledge meeting went well last nite. Everybody is elected and all that fun stuff. Not that anybody cares. This week wasn't completely horrible, though. I've been doing a lot of late-night cupcake sessions. Also, don't quote me on this but I think I did well on my spanish and calc tests. Chem tomorrow, looks like 2nite is a study session.

    Been doing a lot of self-evaluation lately. The results are in, and it's looking grim. Oh well. I'll blame it on being young and stupid. I might as well play that card while I can. Alright, quick nap time. Ah, chem recitation...how I love thee.